Unlocking the Power Within - PART 1: Energy Healing and Transformation
Separation / Connection - Transform in Union
With all the internal and external wars, humanity seems more separated than ever. We need to reconnect and work together during massive changes, yet how? How do we make this transformation and maintain union within ourselves, our relationships, our country, and the world?
As someone who has done much deep internal and relational work, I understand that we must move from our primarily outside-in operating system to an inside-out one to balance ourselves so we can balance our relationships. We MUST also balance technology with a personal spiritual connection, or it will likely be an unattractive picture moving forward. The more uncomfortable outward change becomes in this Century, the more going inward to see, feel, and deal with our internal triggers will heal what is out of alignment, both within and without. The outer world can easily follow suit once we regain our inner power, union (wholeness), and ability to respond, not react. Once we heal, the world will heal.
However, inside/out healing differs significantly from outside/in - or how we've done it for a long time. It may seem challenging, yet it's not if we contemplate some basic principles. I've been on a very inward-driven life path for 65 years, which became energetically intense at times for the past 21 years. This information would have helped me early on, so I share in the hope it will help others. Thanks so much for liking, sharing, and commenting so that I might improve in communicating inside/out. Thanks also for your patience as I do my best to describe experiences, best explained with more inward or Eastern energetic concepts, within a very physical and mental Western world.
Personal Energy Healing Transformation
In 2001, upon confidently and loudly asking for assistance with health issues - primarily digestive, following two surgeries - I was strongly guided to an energy healing workshop. It was a little "out there" for me then - primarily because of my religious training. However, whenever I'd say, "I want to feel better," or pray, "Thank you for guiding me to feel better," I would hear," Get to the workshop!" My inner teachers/guides had to send some additional engaging and synchronistic experiences to get me to sign up. Finally, an entire year later - three months before my 44th birthday - I convinced my husband to accompany me on a road trip to Portland, Oregon. He could go hiking with his best friend from high school while I went to the workshop. He wasn't likely the best candidate for emotional/spiritual hand-holding. Still, he believed that "God" was more of an energy than a white man sitting on a throne - the narrative of a God made in the image of man rather than the reverse - that I'd been indoctrinated with. He had been less religiously programmed, so he didn't make this difficult for me - at least at first. Besides, it was his birthday month, and he deserved time off work, and we deserved some time away together. Our three-year-old son was a bundle of energy and talk and would spend the long weekend with his much older brother, who was 24. It was a win-win for all of us, as my two sons didn't see each other often but were very close.
During the workshop, I could feel something shifting within in all positive ways. Three days after returning home, I was strongly guided to do some energy healing work on myself while meditating before going to bed - a stress-reduction routine I'd begun several months earlier. Meditating - listening deeply by being quiet and breathing deeply - was like riding an old and loved bicycle, ridden many times yet put into storage for 43++ years.
Scoliosis was diagnosed at age 25 and worsened after giving birth at 39. I felt dismayed to see my left shoulder way lower than my right and a dowager's hump starting to form. However, I would have never imagined anything could be done with an "S" curve in my upper back and neck. You can't move bones. The new problem following the workshop was that I couldn't sit up straight to meditate. To do the healing on myself, I had to activate my hands as the instructor taught, but in this case, I had to place my forearms way down on my thighs - an uncomfortable posture to meditate in. He'd also taught us that this healing comes through the eyes, but I close my eyes to meditate. So, well, "I'll stare at that spot on the shower curtain," I thought. I'll date myself in saying that I felt like an Ed Sullivan contortionist. Regardless, I was in the space of trust, present in the moment of the doing, and events unfolded rapidly.
Sitting cross-legged on the bathroom floor, wedged between the sink and bathtub, a mighty voice - which felt my soul speaking through me as the words did not go through my brain - commanded firmly and powerfully, "I WANT TO SIT UP STRAIGHT!" On some level, I understood that it all came from a connection with The Infinite (God/dess, Love, Universe, Creator, All That Is, The Divine, Source, etc. - you choose your word). I had no idea what would occur, but I wasn't overthinking it. There was a much love energy present somehow. An unseen being pushed me on my left shoulder - another on the right. Physically, I felt fingertips. They made my body rock like a metronome - the movement so precise that I couldn't create it myself. A powerful force opened and rose from the base of my spine, moved up in an "s" shape, and swirled around my head. I felt a divine love present, so there wasn't much to feel confused about, nor was there time. It only lasted a couple of minutes.
My husband was in bed. I needed to talk about it, but when I told him, his eyes glazed over; he seemed disinterested and only wanted to sleep. I couldn't do anything about that, so I sighed, rolled over, and slept. The following morning, I was overwhelmed at first glance of myself in the mirror. My entire countenance was lighter and brighter. I said internally to the new person looking at me, "Wow, you look great!" Still, I had no idea what had happened. After showering and fixing my hair, I pulled the extension mirror away from the wall to look at the back of my hair and saw my shoulders were both even and level, and the hump was gone. No, my bones did not move and are still curved. However, the muscles hold everything together differently, and I no longer have debilitating migraines from the scoliosis. Later, when I would ask what happened, I would consistently hear the word "kundalini." Online, I read that some thought it evil - of the devil - but there was nothing wrong or controlling about what I experienced. Just relief, more inner peace, and joy. I wondered, "If it is evil, why is it shown in the symbol of healing - the caduceus - hanging in many doctors' offices?" To this day - 22 years later - I may one day thoroughly read a book on kundalini. I have not felt the need. It was a divine love event and something there is just too little of.
Many other notable experiences unfolded after that time - both on my healing journey and with clients. I share some fantastic inspirational stories with clients when the situation is correct, and I must make time to get them written down. However, this post intends to open the conversation about the benefits of understanding energy. This topic will only become more commonplace as we move forward in time. It IS time. If you are still with me, let's go deeper.
A Human Having Few Spiritual Experiences - Or A Spirit (Energy) Having Many Human Experiences?
As evidenced by those reporting "out of body" experiences - both in the dream state and upon a "near death" type experience, and also those who do believe in a "heaven" - we continue onward in some form after leaving our physical bodies. Most people who believe in The Infinite source know we exist past death. However, they rarely identify what part of us continues.
If it is true that a portion of us leaves our physical vessel upon death and travels somewhere, then what would we be made of? Energy? Then, is this what we are at our core? We often say we are out of energy when we are too busy doing, doing, doing. So, can we more easily raise our energy back to who we indeed are - to prevent disease than we currently believe as a society? My short answer from experience is absolutely! However, we must understand how.
If we are physical (body sensation), emotional (feelings), mental (thoughts), and spiritual (intuitions or beliefs), that means 3/4 of ourselves is made up of energy, and only 1/4 of us is physical. Therefore, it doesn't make sense to keep our focus on physical transformations rather than the energetic first. Now, I'm not saying that sometimes challenges are only physical. If we got hit by a bus, our physical body would need immediate attention. Yet, for preventative health, it makes sense to include the core or spiritual (energy) essence of ourselves for the most profound and longest-lasting health transformations. Also, to sort what is genuinely ours from what we've picked up or were given through familial, religious, or social conditioning. The way forward is to integrate the inner with the outer to create wholeness so we are more prepared as we move into more complex times.
We Are Not Broken - Only Must Wipe Old Mud Off
We are all like a beautiful lotus blossom at our core. Yet, arriving on Earth, we are planted in the mud. We can also have mud slung at us, rub against familial or ancestral mud and take it with us, and/or wallow in the mud for a time or life. Our spirit/soul finds experience and growth fun and does not judge our choices. However, by learning from, growing with, and removing this mud, we can see and feel our true core or soul essence again - which is much lighter.
Twelve years after my initial profound healing experience, I was given more information about my particular brand of mud that caused the scoliosis and many other wounds. I learned what I'd done over my life to release the held energy (feelings, thoughts, beliefs) so The Infinite could do their part. Having a spiritual roto-rooter and significant healing of my physical body that science would say impossible, I was good with it. Feeling more love inside myself daily, I didn't feel I needed to understand the mechanics. My questions were more like: How did this happen to and through me? Why me and not others? How could it happen to others? Should it? Later, in my 60s, I discovered I'd become known as "the energy lady" in my small community. I thought it funny. We all are energy (spiritual) beings! Learning more about who we are could change the world for the better.
Unfortunately, many still believe anything not seen physically or understood mentally is evil. It's often a reaction or trigger which arises when our sense of safety and perhaps conditioning feels threatened by something we don't innerstand (heart) or understand (brain). However, for the most growth, we need to be able to follow and work through other ideas without becoming triggered.
Don't Get Hung Up on the Words
In the U.S., we currently have issues around labeling and censorship, and therefore around the First Amendment to the Constitution, since people are so upset or triggered by others' words. Yes, words carry energy. However, we need to pay more attention to the people involved and their energy signature and motivation, not just the words - which mean different things to different people. There wouldn't be so many religions from one book if it weren't. Generally, we are alike in many ways, but on the inside - or soul level - we are all like unique snowflakes. We must be more curious and open to our internal states without judgment to be more receptive to others. Self-compassion to outer compassion and vice versa. This will assist us to get through these challenging new birthing times together. If we can see ourselves better, we can also see others better. This is why we don't reside on the planet alone.
Trigger warning for anyone who will react rather than respond to anything outside of their conditioning
A friend refused to read my whole post because I said the words "Universe and Witches" in it, and they "stay away from those topics." Although I understand that point of view, it also deeply concerns me. If we can't trust our discernment or keep ourselves safe while looking at other perspectives and working through our internal triggers - the only thing we can genuinely work on - then we are in deep trouble moving forward. Instead of moving away from things in fear, once we remove the mud within, we can stay at peace in our core despite all disturbances that might come. This may be how Jesus was trying to teach others. Not that through him, they would be saved physically - but spiritually - by following his example. Regardless, healing our energetic wounds creates an enormous opportunity for our internal and relational growth. If we stay as little children, refusing to look under the bed or behind the curtain to see if the monster is indeed there - or if it is just a reflection of our unhealed fears - this is how we can be easily manipulated. However, we will know we have spiritually arrived once we can broach all topics without internal triggering or judgment - just inner discernment of whether something is correct for us in that present time. (More depth on the interior and our emotions in the 2nd post in this series.)
Energy Medicine: Learn to Discern Between Evil (Anti-Live or Life) or Life?
It's not my intention to upset anyone. However, it's Halloween 2023, and I just heard a well-known media person go off about "witches" and the occult on his broadcast today. It drives me a bit batty (joking) regarding the amount of ignorant seeming superstition and judgment still present in the 21st Century. I agree everything is upside down and backward on this Earth, but it's time to learn to discern. It seems that we've been programmed or conditioned to believe that _____________ group or ____________ group is evil - without even bothering to understand deeply what their perspectives are without fear.
So, as an exercise - because the topic of "witches" is an excellent example on many fronts. See if you can respond to these questions healthily and without feeling upset or reacting. When we practice this - focus on healing ourselves, not another person or group - we will have arrived at that peaceful, loving world we all want.
Don't we already have enough war going on to point fingers at "witches" again?
Do we have to add more flames to the already burning fires or constantly stir the pot (said tongue in cheek)?
Can we look at ideas now with a curious mind and open heart and stop lumping what we don't understand into a nice container called _________________?
Were all the "witches" who were burned at the stake in past times calling themselves "witches?"
Were they card-carrying members of Wicca - practicing "the craft," or did their accusers only label them that?
Was the "craft" a "bad thing" - or just setting firm feeling-based intention or ritual "spell" - while making something like a medicine or remedy or even food?
How different is that from praying over our food, medicine, or safety?
Were some creating from the place of "whatever was in the highest/best good of all concerned?"
Or were all of them spiteful, bitter, hateful?
Weren't we all "made in the image of our Creator?"
Doesn't that mean we can also create a little light magic for the world - an intention, invention, prayer, or medicine?
What if we all have that intention-setting magic, and how we choose to use it matters for the highest and best of everyone?
Or, we can create for harm - like war?
Have we considered that Pagans and "witches" may have only been people appreciating and living closer to nature in ways their weekly church-attending accusers didn't understand?
Women herbalists and healers?
Could they have loved everything so much as to see it as "all one?"
Could that gratitude for nature have looked like "worship" to others who didn't ask?
Is it wrong to be so grateful to nature for what it provides that our gratitude appears as "worship?"
Pagans weren't burning massive amounts of people, right?
Is sitting in a church once a week and then torturing or burning people better?
How about 21st Century war?
OK, as long as it's not us?
Native Americans appreciated nature also and used EVERYTHING they took - rather than wasting it - and look what we did to them! We could have learned from them, and we could have learned from good witches.
More questions for your discernment.
Is occult just what is hidden and not understood?
Was their practice evil (or anti-live) "occult," which means "secret, covered over, or to hide?"
Were they hiding things intentionally because they knew they were "wrong" or because the reigning powers wanted the Pagan community to buy their medicine instead? (Like choosing a natural supplement or herb to avoid illness or using a pharmaceutical? Or using energy medicine versus allopathic?) Isn't it a choice?
Black or White Magic - How WE Create It
Of course, some have ill intent. For example, "black magicians" or anyone who consciously sends hostile or punishing energy to another. War is black magic. Burning innocent women at the stake was black magic. Conscious or unconscious judgment of others, wishing ill on our "enemy," and gossip to rise ourselves on an energy level are lighter forms - yet still, black magic. This way, we use our energy - inner spiritual power or "magic" - to harm, not heal. [Sidenote: Speaking unflattering about another with the often unconscious intent to raise ourselves at an energetic cost to someone else - gossip - is not the same as trying to sort out a challenge with someone by discussing it with another person. Sometimes, we seek perspective, clarity, and closure - when we can't get that from the one we've had the challenge with.]
We are all Children of The Infinite, and each has a piece of that creative power within. However, we must choose to align with it. Most of us were separated from that connection - in varying ratios - for various reasons for thousands of years. That divine power is represented by the "ruby slippers" the "wicked witch" wishes to take for herself to use for harmful purposes. If we consciously try to disempower, punish, or take power, ideas, creativity, etc., from others to get what we feel we deserve without appreciating the source or earning it, this is us. Or, we can give our power away - disempower ourselves - by projecting our shadows, wounds, traumas, fears, etc., outward onto others. New Oxford American Dictionary -- Witch
1 a person thought to have magic powers, especially evil ones, popularly depicted as a woman wearing a black cloak and pointed hat and flying on a broomstick. • a follower or practitioner of Wicca or of modern witchcraft. 2 derogatory an ugly or unpleasant woman: he can marry the old witch for all I care. 3 dated a woman who is bewitchingly attractive.
The bottom line is that a "witch" is defined as a green-faced, ugly woman with a pointed hat, wearing a black cloak, and flying on a broomstick. But how many women do you know that do that in the world? Also, she's ugly or beautiful - so well, that covers all women. Is it possible it was just a way to disempower any and all women with any internal "magic" or power?
We all have "magic" and power when we wipe off our mud - fears, etc. - and align with the core of who we are as souls. Anyone who uses their internal or energy magic to harm is in for personal, long-term, and deep soul trouble. Anyone who uses their magic to heal needs to be respected, supported, and appreciated - not be lumped into old superstitions. In this case, we appear as fearful children - not wise adults.
Be In The World - Not Of It
There is so much talk about "narcissists" and "narcissism" now. Educating ourselves about those who over-identify with this world and their identity within it is terrific. Primarily since they can "hide behind a curtain" or a mask and manipulate and deceive for personal gain. Yet, focusing on others - not our part in this spectrum - keeps us energetically stuck. It primarily gives our energy, power, or "magic" to the very thing we don't wish to provide energy to. High-on-the-spectrum narcissistic (wounded and identity-driven) people, teachers, leaders, groups, or those called the "elite, cabal, evil," etc., don't care if the energy is positive or negative. Attention is attention, and energy is energy. They only care that the energy is gained and that they remain "seeming" in control or power. However, We need not waste our precious life force on the wicked (evil). We all need to be like Glinda, who laughs and says, "Be gone with you!" as easy as flicking off a mosquito. She knows the wicked or evil (without empathy) have no power over her and what she chooses to create. Glinda is also adamant that Dorothy keep the ruby slippers on and not allow anyone to take them (her power and magic) from her. This is how we all get back home.
On deeper levels, an "energy" or "spiritual" war is occurring now, whether we can see it or not. The fight is for our energy or lifeforce - soul connection. Therefore, the solutions are also on that level. We give away our God-given creative power and "magic" or energy by not going within to develop a stronger personal spiritual connection and then reaching out to discuss innovative solutions with our peers. In numbers, no evil will ever win this internal war.
Ultimately, it's funny and fun at Halloween to embody the death side of things - that's what the holiday is about - similar to The Day of the Dead in other countries. These celebrations/holidays/ceremonies were initially meant to have us embrace the death energy and the dark side of life. The dimming of the light and winters that come - inside and outside of us - without dismissal, judgment, or fear of them. Yet there have been confusing insertions around this by those wishing to control us negatively. Celebrating the dark, shadowy parts of ourselves and life - NOT talking about evil or anti-life here - means not projecting it onto something outside ourselves. We must all embrace our light, shadows, wounds, and traumas before we can be whole again. (More on all of this in Parts 2 and 3.)
Balance of Technology & Spiritual Connection
Although technology can bring much good into our lives, we could rapidly slide down a slippery slope without humanity's spirituality being balanced with that technology. Therefore, we must look up more often from our phones and computers to monitor the technology and ourselves more carefully than ever to get all the essential details. For instance, The Infinite resides both within and outside of us energetically. We all have a choice to connect there more often than with our manufactured energy gadgets - which dim our Infinite connection to nothing and then slowly become who we are. Spirit first, then machine - with wisdom? Or machine, and never Spirit? Which will be the more empowered choice?
There is also a tremendous push toward acceptance of all the energy-healing machines available now. The scary part for me is looking at how, in many cases, they are more trusted and accepted than other human beings. I get it in some way. However, there is also something wrong with that picture. We all have unique gifts to offer to the whole. For our most positive future in the technological world, we must be able to uncover the mud within, heal, trust one another, and connect for our planet to thrive.
Challenges and Keys to Energetic Success
We've been mainly focused on life's physical and mental aspects, ignoring deeper emotional, mental, and spiritual elements and expecting that to work toward wholeness. However, that is living as human doings rather than as human beings. Then we wonder why our world is so broken and strange sometimes. We've been an "I need to do better to feel better" society. However, it seems that experiencing more often, "I need to feel better within, to do better," could balance us further within and ripple to create more planetary balance.
Sadly, we also live in a "take a pill" or something else culture for our physical body, which is seen as a machine - and is somewhat like a car and depends on how we treat it. However, this idea is not translatable to energy therapy, where we must take personal accountability for our growth through energetic changes in our feelings, thoughts, and/or beliefs. I've seen and experienced the holistic health and balance that can come from the client or myself going deep enough to make a shift that remains. I've also witnessed myself, clients, and friends being unwilling to pay more attention to that energy and the resulting less-than-positive outcomes. Please also don't believe that "inner magic" is the kind that gets us any material goods we want, either. That is - often with "The Law of Attraction" - going down a slippery slope of worldly worth and doesn't always translate to a true spiritual journey. Here's a big conditioned truth-busting moment: Our worth has nothing to do with our material success or lack thereof.
The practitioner can point us in the correct direction and move what we've already worked through out of the way for the energy to flow better. They can also suggest ways we use our ability to respond (responsibility, power, or "magic") to move the energy for ourselves by looking more deeply into our energy (feelings/thoughts/beliefs) and not just our physical and mental self. Energy healing/clearing/balancing strengthens our bond with our spiritual, unseen, energetic helpers and Higher Power. Ultimately, we must get the information about the correct person to work with from them. There are many energy healers, but have they done their inner work? What level have they reached? Have they wiped off their inner mud? That's important. The effectiveness of the work is directly proportional to how much inner work the practitioner has done.
Transformation and Change in the 21st Century
Humans don't like to change too much. Some choose to transform very slowly, which is a choice. However, change is increasing globally, and we can do nothing to stop it. If we are willing, what took many years to transform personally and collectively can be instantaneous. At these precarious times, making positive steps toward clearing and growing ourselves means we can "be the change we wish to see in the world."
Navigating more from our hearts, seeing ourselves as more than we can see with our minds and eyes, and accepting our Divine energetic (emotional/spiritual) nature, we recognize that we are all children or pieces of The Infinite ~ of Love. Behaving as such now is our choice and opportunity to create a better world. Embodying the non-dualistic, non-dueling superpowers we didn't know we had, we can return to a world where it feels we are of one heart - but we must each choose to rise above separation!
When we all see ourselves as Divine Creators,
there is nothing we can’t heal!
The website is Transformative Union.
My path, and a journey for everyone to choose to "Be the change we wish to see in the world."
Consider doing your internal work for all of us during this time of significant internal and external war. If you have done much already, but you know there is more, I tend to be able to light up deeper aspects, enabling them to be seen more clearly.
Thank you for visiting my energetic home!
Links to some of my healing tools are below if you are interested.